I am not infallible in my pursuits. Over the weekend, I ate:

- a pancake with syrup
- 2 grilled cheese sandwiches
- a veggie bento box (tofu, teriyaki stir fry, tempura veggies), maki rolls
- a couple of cookies
- too many samples (wine and cheese) [*]

[*] – on Sunday when visiting wineries

How did I feel later on Sunday? Terrible! I felt bloated, depressed, low energy, my stomach hurt: I was a mess. Sometimes I really desire the instant gratification – and for that instant, it seems very satisfying, but after the fact? After the fact, I have a sea of regret while my body says to me “why?” Why did you do this to me? Why did you treat me with such disrespect? No, I’m not infallible; I’m only human. I recognize my temptations. Dating someone who doesn’t eat the way that I do poses a huge challenge. Sometimes I experience frustration over this. On the surface, I am unhappy that he has things in his home that I am tempted to eat, and sometimes I am hesitant to even be there. However, inside, I know that it has nothing to do with him. The gift of being an adult is that we have free choice on how we live our lives. I will not try to impose my lifestyle choices on anyone else; they are my choices and mine alone. Yes, I wish he ate better because I love him and want him to be healthy, but these are not things that can be forced. All I can do is be the best “me” I can be for myself – this is what my sphere of control contains. Anything else may occur because of passive positive influence, but that is all it can be. Sometimes I conquer, sometimes I fall prey. In the end, however, I’m always learning and growing and working towards the betterment of “me”.